I don't really know which direction my art is headed to. Ever since I explored digital I felt that I've lost the interest some of my watchers. Now that I've been cartooning lately, I feel less and less satisfied about the impact of my work to the community.
Yes, I've gained a few more watchers, but I don't feel too gratified when I look at my gallery. Confusing, maybe? Sometimes I feel like I owe everyone (including myself) an explanation as to why the mix of styles has been going on.
Maybe I just miss my old, struggling self, the man who took pleasure in the simple blacks and whites and grays of his works.
I love pencils, that's the bottom line. When I started here on dA I wasn't too keen on doing portraits. That changed a lot.
I hated doing details, being a natural procrastinator that I am. But that changed as well.
I hated colors. Obviously, that changed when I went digital.
I like some manga/anime art. That won't change. And lately I've been doing a lot of it these couple of weeks. Have I been shortchanging my watchers and gaining a few in the process? Am I evolving, or taking backward steps?
I'm actually contemplating on putting down my cartoon art and put it in a new account. At least that streamlines my varying preferences. I have no identity anymore.
Your thoughts, please?